![]() Holding in the pain that has caused so many tears. So you and your power can just leave me be.įeelings of emptiness that have no depth.ĭisappointment climbs the walls inside my chest. You ruined my life and then wished me well. You promised me heaven and sent me to hell. Only to realize you're nothing but a scam. Hoping and praying you'll help them through. How you rip me apart then lend me a hand. Somewhere far away where I'll never find? Then you take it all and want me to steal. Life keeps getting better one day at a time. So I am here to tell you in this little rhyme. It's given me time to remember and think. Now it's been eight months since I had my last drink. He said, "Suit up and show up it's time to go to work." I said, "God, I'm not worth it I feel like a jerk." It's going to be different this time, right? It's because I kept asking night after night Why my addiction kept screaming, "Yes, Yes, Yes" God answered the riddle that so long I did guess. I said, "God are you there? Can you help me, please?"Ī sudden peace came over me and I fell to my knees. I had lost my child, my family, and my friends. How quickly from one beer, to smoking crystal meth.īut all I heard was screaming, "Yes, Yes, Yes." It sounded like she was repeating, "Yes, Yes, Yes." She kept whispering something I could only guess. My loved ones and friends could only watch and frown. She grabbed my hand and we tore through the town. Her face became ugly, calloused, and deranged. Then one day, my friend suddenly changed. Liquids, pills, and powders, and I bought and bought. There were the answers that I had always sought. She said, "I have the answers are you ready to play?" There stood a young lady with blond hair and brown eyes. It sounded familiar, like I had heard it before. One day when I was young, I heard a knock at my door. Just remember this I will always be your disease. So when you think I'm gone and you can finally be at ease, Well here I go now I'll just be on my wayīut not for to much longer cause I still have much to say Spend our life together won't that make you happy,ĭon't let those people tell you what I am all about,Ĭause then you'll find a way a way to kick me out I'll embrace you in my arms and I'll never set you free, I will turn you from everyone that tries to take you from me Then following comes denial, deceit, and lies I come in many forms, and shapes, and size You will lie to everyone and say that I ain't real,īut if that's the case why can't you put down that pill I've made you feel so happy but in the end you was always sad I was there for you in the good times but mostly in the bad, I'll take everything you got and still want something more I am smarter than you and I am in control,įamily, friends, and loved ones they won't matter anymore, I will always be here no matter where you go, I will never let you sleep or put your mind at ease, This poem will break your heart if you have ever been through it or know someone that has gone through it. Is every day Armageddon walks through their front door. How does it feel to dance with the Devil?Īre you honestly going to try and beat me?īesides, I'm in the mood for a good show.īut your sobriety has only lasted a year.Īnd I'll be the first thing that comes to mind.Ī vicious cycle, that's what you're thinking,Įveryone's looking for some Armageddon war. My naive child, there's no use trying to hide. I wrote this after I reached my first year of sobriety. So don't ever try him, no matter how unbearable life is seemin'. Nothing good will ever come from knowing this dark demon, Trust me, this is your life and not a game! No one should have to succumb to this Master of misery and shame. Just in case, he goes by Meth, Crystal, or Ice,Īnd I am begging you to just take my advice. If your paths cross, run fast and then run faster. He only searches for his next victim in which to engage. He shows no mercy to religion, sex, or age. He took over and everything good was left behind. Yes, I have a master of the most evil kind. You love me too much to be happy and serene." ![]() My master says, "You'll never stay clean They can't picture me locked in my room smoking a pipe.īut now I am left with teeth rotting in my mouth. I used to be loving, caring, and enjoyed my life,īut that was before my master took me for his wife.Įveryone says I don't look like the type. I can't rid him, even for my children's sake. He's too strong and his control is never ceasin'. Still I can't leave my master for any reason. I used to have a life, and it was somewhat great. Thanks to my master, I am now someone I hate. He totally controls my body, soul, and mind. I am proud to say that I am in recovery now but still wanted to share. This is something I wrote in the deepest part of my addiction.
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